Stars when you shine
You know how I feel
Scent of the pine
You know how I feel
Yeah freedom is mine
And I know how I feel
It's a new dawn
It's a new day
It's a new life
It's a new dawn
It's a new day
It's a new life
For me
And I'm feeling good

today i dreamt in red. =P

i'm back (?)
derail
now
sparky's time
now
then?

rawr. i'm gonna become an animal. and i'll loveevery step of the way is this power if it is i'm so gonna get polluted by it thats when the poor animals die and stuff and people start waking upwith this thought in their heads 'we fucked the world we're stuck with' and thenthe scientists paint a gorgeous picture of terraformed mars and outer limit explorations and we all drown ourselves in facade apathy again and life goes on and on and on and we do the same damn things and once in a long while try to BREAK into our own hearts and do some creative renovation tomake our existence slightly more comfortable? no bearable it can only be bearable and that's how life is though often we enjoy it but once you've been over the edge you never quite get urself back all the way its liek a grizzly went through your room its not even an apartment so you could be sharingg it with a few other people which is what i think is happening to me tenants are moving in and i can hear them renovating? perhaps this is what they call the voices and christians just have god in their apartments literally and he speak loudly

hm. it's amazing but oh well =)

hahaha great i've lost it slowly losing it all to myself what a development and so close to promoes DAMN!

going crazy in posts is unnerving but fun. today i'm normal but i was thinking about christianity and god and hit a roadblock. what is the nature of heaven??? i know that god has a plan for me in life and this is the purpose that he made me for my own unique purpose. i also know that death is something that should not be feared but rather embraced as it is our father calling us home to heaven. so if you continue the metaphor, when we're on this earth is when we're not at home and so it makes reasonable metaphorical sense to say that we're at work aren't we, doing the work for god and his glory. so what happens when you realise your purpose and go home to the lord? does it mean that the lord no longer has a use for you and effectively you are purposeless in heaven? i really hope not and i really want him to have a plan for me even when i'm no longer on this earth coz the alternative is rather scary, that we are all here striving to deny the meaningless truth of life and existence from ourselves through stimulation and there is nothing after.
perhaps
i should have prayed for less wisdom?